Bucket List 32yr Female TERMINAL CANCER
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Bucket list: Several experiences or achievements that a person hopes to have or accomplish during their lifetime.
Hi, my name is Jenni and I am a 32-year-old female from Coos Bay, Oregon. I have metastatic breast cancer which is Terminal. I am looking for assistance in realizing my goals and desires while I still have a body capable of doing so.
BACKSTORY:
Young, confident, in-love and successful. I worked hard and built a great life by the time I was 30 with no intention of slowing down. I would soon find out that I didn’t have a choice.
I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer in December 2016. A persistent pain in my side eventually led to my diagnosis. It was aggressive, so I had to make the "decision" to move forward with the recommendation of doctors. During my first Mastectomy they removed a baseball size lump from my right breast along with 28 Lymph nodes. I then endured Chemotherapy and radiation where I lost my hair and self-confidence, followed by DIEP flap surgery. In this surgery they removed my left breast also and made 2 new breasts from the fat of my stomach. The entire "treatment" process was incredibly painful and emotionally devastating. Never the less, I had this shit!! Calm, collected and tough, my glass was still half full. I continued to sell real estate through the entire ordeal and managed to not only finish as one of the top sales people in my office but took home the title of “Best Realtor of the South Coast” for the second year in a row. I was so lucky (and still am) to have the support of the best clients, colleagues, friends and family in the whole world!! I can’t help but sob as I write this thinking about my family and what they must go through just because they love me. FUCK CANCER!!!!! (Please forgive the language, my husband is a sailor after all.)
June 2018 my life is finally starting to take shape again. My hair is grown out enough so that I can style it. My energy is returning, and I am feeling well enough to start going to the gym again. I am preparing for our trip to Jamaica in October to get married (something that was postponed by the cancer) and I am looking forward to a long future with the love of my life by my side.
Have you ever been slapped REALLY hard right across the face? This is how I felt when I noticed the lumps in my left breast. Upon investigation, the lumps appeared to be dead tissue from the last surgery I had to correct the shape of my left breast. During the investigation however, new images discovered lesions on bones. From my femur, up through my spine and on my skull. THIS is not good news, this means I no longer get to work towards a cure or even remission. The name of the game now is to try and keep the cancer from spreading further for as long as possible. With that lovely reassurance, I sought medical treatment at Cancer Treatment Center of America in Tulsa, OK. Unfortunately, the prognosis was the same at CTCA. They did offer me oral chemo, which I take daily, and provide an incredible healing environment full of amazing people who really care. (If you or anyone you know has cancer, I would highly recommend making the phone call to CTCA immediately and seeing if there are options for you.)
WHERE DOES THAT LEAVE ME NOW?
You can find me some days trying to cure cancer. Researching and learning about nutrition and trying to change my lifestyle to reflect what I learn: Food as medicine, Rick Simpson Oil, Meditation, positive affirmations, energy healing, vitamins, self-care, sacred roots and special teas. Other days I go to doctor appointments, work, visit my mother, walk the dog, run errands and do chores. Most days I fight depression, battle with anxiety, struggle with body image, ache with pain and toile over the meaning of life and what my purpose is. I am on a roller coaster that I cannot control. My mental state is a surprise to me each day and my body is failing me.
It is a very fine line to walk between being positive and realistic. And while I am going to give my best shot at curing my cancer, I also do not want it to be too late for me to experience some of the incredible things this life has to offer. The reality is that my bones are weak, my body is pained and I’m capable of doing less and less all the time. I want to stare in awe at the natural wonders of the planet. I want to grow internally as I learn new things about life from other cultures. I want to meet new people and show someone less fortunate that kindness and love can come from a stranger. I want to make memories with my family and friends that they will never forget. And lastly, I want to travel with my husband and have all the experiences together that we were supposed to have over our next 50 years of marriage.
Thankfully my savings and the contributions of the community and my family have kept me afloat over the last 2 years. I have spent tens of thousands of dollars on medical care and travelling for care and I owe tens of thousands more with no end in sight. I have accepted a lot of truths about my situation, but I refuse to accept that I don’t deserve the life experiences I have worked so hard to realize.
If I don’t get to do these things soon, I may never have the chance. Please help me by sharing this far and wide. Maybe a well-off person will see my list and want me to experience something that they have cherished in their lifetime. Maybe a kind-hearted celebrity will support my quest for experiencing a full life in the short time I have left. Maybe, just maybe, I will get the opportunity to cross off my bucket list before the deadline that looms ahead of me. Thank you SO MUCH for reading this and sharing.
JENNI'S BUCKET LIST
Take my husband to Disneyworld
Cover my scars with a chest tattoo
See my mother in a better home
Complete Cabin & Start a little farm w/garden & goats/chickens
Save a life by donating my organs
Attend an Ayahuasca ceremony
See Niagara Falls
Fly over a volcano with lava
See some concerts where the artist puts on a great show like Beyoncé, Kanye west or lady gaga
Go to Burning man
Sit behind the glass at a pro Hockey game
Go to Tomorrowland in Belgium
Visit throughout Europe: Paris Eiffel tower, Venice canals
Attend a full moon party in Thailand/see Vietnam and try Balut
Tahiti/Bora Bora- Stay in overwater bungalow
Catch a big ass fish
Skydive
Iceland to see northern lights and go to Blue Lagoon
See icebergs in Greenland
Go through Panama Canal
The Great Barrier Reef: Scuba dive
See the Pyramids of Giza, Egypt
See the architecture of Dubai
Yellowstone National Park
Road trip east coast USA, see New York
Learn Spanish
Ride in hot air balloon
Swim with nurse sharks
Hi, my name is Jenni and I am a 32-year-old female from Coos Bay, Oregon. I have metastatic breast cancer which is Terminal. I am looking for assistance in realizing my goals and desires while I still have a body capable of doing so.
BACKSTORY:
Young, confident, in-love and successful. I worked hard and built a great life by the time I was 30 with no intention of slowing down. I would soon find out that I didn’t have a choice.
I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer in December 2016. A persistent pain in my side eventually led to my diagnosis. It was aggressive, so I had to make the "decision" to move forward with the recommendation of doctors. During my first Mastectomy they removed a baseball size lump from my right breast along with 28 Lymph nodes. I then endured Chemotherapy and radiation where I lost my hair and self-confidence, followed by DIEP flap surgery. In this surgery they removed my left breast also and made 2 new breasts from the fat of my stomach. The entire "treatment" process was incredibly painful and emotionally devastating. Never the less, I had this shit!! Calm, collected and tough, my glass was still half full. I continued to sell real estate through the entire ordeal and managed to not only finish as one of the top sales people in my office but took home the title of “Best Realtor of the South Coast” for the second year in a row. I was so lucky (and still am) to have the support of the best clients, colleagues, friends and family in the whole world!! I can’t help but sob as I write this thinking about my family and what they must go through just because they love me. FUCK CANCER!!!!! (Please forgive the language, my husband is a sailor after all.)
June 2018 my life is finally starting to take shape again. My hair is grown out enough so that I can style it. My energy is returning, and I am feeling well enough to start going to the gym again. I am preparing for our trip to Jamaica in October to get married (something that was postponed by the cancer) and I am looking forward to a long future with the love of my life by my side.
Have you ever been slapped REALLY hard right across the face? This is how I felt when I noticed the lumps in my left breast. Upon investigation, the lumps appeared to be dead tissue from the last surgery I had to correct the shape of my left breast. During the investigation however, new images discovered lesions on bones. From my femur, up through my spine and on my skull. THIS is not good news, this means I no longer get to work towards a cure or even remission. The name of the game now is to try and keep the cancer from spreading further for as long as possible. With that lovely reassurance, I sought medical treatment at Cancer Treatment Center of America in Tulsa, OK. Unfortunately, the prognosis was the same at CTCA. They did offer me oral chemo, which I take daily, and provide an incredible healing environment full of amazing people who really care. (If you or anyone you know has cancer, I would highly recommend making the phone call to CTCA immediately and seeing if there are options for you.)
WHERE DOES THAT LEAVE ME NOW?
You can find me some days trying to cure cancer. Researching and learning about nutrition and trying to change my lifestyle to reflect what I learn: Food as medicine, Rick Simpson Oil, Meditation, positive affirmations, energy healing, vitamins, self-care, sacred roots and special teas. Other days I go to doctor appointments, work, visit my mother, walk the dog, run errands and do chores. Most days I fight depression, battle with anxiety, struggle with body image, ache with pain and toile over the meaning of life and what my purpose is. I am on a roller coaster that I cannot control. My mental state is a surprise to me each day and my body is failing me.
It is a very fine line to walk between being positive and realistic. And while I am going to give my best shot at curing my cancer, I also do not want it to be too late for me to experience some of the incredible things this life has to offer. The reality is that my bones are weak, my body is pained and I’m capable of doing less and less all the time. I want to stare in awe at the natural wonders of the planet. I want to grow internally as I learn new things about life from other cultures. I want to meet new people and show someone less fortunate that kindness and love can come from a stranger. I want to make memories with my family and friends that they will never forget. And lastly, I want to travel with my husband and have all the experiences together that we were supposed to have over our next 50 years of marriage.
Thankfully my savings and the contributions of the community and my family have kept me afloat over the last 2 years. I have spent tens of thousands of dollars on medical care and travelling for care and I owe tens of thousands more with no end in sight. I have accepted a lot of truths about my situation, but I refuse to accept that I don’t deserve the life experiences I have worked so hard to realize.
If I don’t get to do these things soon, I may never have the chance. Please help me by sharing this far and wide. Maybe a well-off person will see my list and want me to experience something that they have cherished in their lifetime. Maybe a kind-hearted celebrity will support my quest for experiencing a full life in the short time I have left. Maybe, just maybe, I will get the opportunity to cross off my bucket list before the deadline that looms ahead of me. Thank you SO MUCH for reading this and sharing.
JENNI'S BUCKET LIST
Take my husband to Disneyworld
Cover my scars with a chest tattoo
See my mother in a better home
Complete Cabin & Start a little farm w/garden & goats/chickens
Save a life by donating my organs
Attend an Ayahuasca ceremony
See Niagara Falls
Fly over a volcano with lava
See some concerts where the artist puts on a great show like Beyoncé, Kanye west or lady gaga
Go to Burning man
Sit behind the glass at a pro Hockey game
Go to Tomorrowland in Belgium
Visit throughout Europe: Paris Eiffel tower, Venice canals
Attend a full moon party in Thailand/see Vietnam and try Balut
Tahiti/Bora Bora- Stay in overwater bungalow
Catch a big ass fish
Skydive
Iceland to see northern lights and go to Blue Lagoon
See icebergs in Greenland
Go through Panama Canal
The Great Barrier Reef: Scuba dive
See the Pyramids of Giza, Egypt
See the architecture of Dubai
Yellowstone National Park
Road trip east coast USA, see New York
Learn Spanish
Ride in hot air balloon
Swim with nurse sharks
Fundraising team (2)
Jenni Morrow
Organizer
Coos Bay, OR
Sandra Beebe
Team member
